Ever had a day when you felt like you were on top of the world and you had all the joy you could possibly imagine, and then in a blink of an eye you lose that feeling and you feel more helpless than ever before? I had that feeling today and have had it many times in the past. Whenever I am full of joy I feel as if there is no way I will be on the other side of it ever again, but for some reason it never works out that way. I guess you could call it spiritual warfare, i dont know, but it is something I believe we all struggle with, some more than others, but still a global deal.I think what happens is that I am content and joyful with my life one day and then think that feeling will last forever, but on the contrary that is when I usually put the relationship side with God away and do things on my own because I am happy with where I am and don't need any help anymore. I have realized tonight that is probably the reason I come crashing down so fast; because I leave God behind and go on with life thinking that when things are going good I can put God on the side until I need him again for the tough stuff. He is not meant to be there only in the tough times, but at all times, and I should be working to build that relationship every day as much as possible to grow and learn how to be more like him. Maybe if I would just focus on growing in my relationship even when I feel like I dont need him then I wouldn't have as many downfalls because I will never lose sight of the end prize and what is really important, just maybe. I can only hope. God will always make things tough and test me but as long as I remind myself every day of his grace hopefully I can avoid the constant theme of living without God when everything is going well. I can't do it alone, so why am I trying? Gotta put that pride away and put all the trust where it needs to be as cliche as it sounds. The love God has is too much to comprehend, so why do I try so hard. I am definitely making it harder than it needs to be right now, so time to turn over a new page and just gotta stick close to the cross and listen every day.
So Long Self
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Have I told you lately how much your love for the Lord encourages me? I think you're exactly right, it's so much easier to seek the Lord when you don't feel like you have any other options. How much more glory does He get, though, when we choose to seek him just for who He is rather than what He can do for us. There's a verse in Jeremiah (I can't find it right now, but I'll keep looking) where God warns people against becoming complacent and stagnant when things are going their way, because that's when you become prideful and start thinking you can do things on you own without his help. It's better to be in the desert walking in communion with the Lord than on top of the mountain without him. Thanks for the good word :)! You know how I was telling you that my mom had been encouraging me to start speaking scripture over people,I found this one while I was looking for that other verse in Jeremiah and I thought it was really encouraging so it's all yours :):
This is what the Lord, the God of Israel says...
"I will give Dan singleness of heart and action, so that he will always fear me for his own good and the good of his children after him. I will make an everlasting covenant with him. I will never stop doing good to him, and I will inspire him to fear me, so that he will never turn away from me. I will rejoice in doing him good and will assuredly plant him in this land with all my heart and soul."
Jeremiah 32:39
Keep sharing what the Lord is doing in your heart, because I know I'm not the only one who is blessed by it :)!
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