Take This Life

Well here it is 2:37 a.m. and I am still up when I should be getting some sleep considering I have a test at 12:30 tomm afternoon. I am not tired for some reason. For the last couple weeks or so I have had a hard time falling asleep, but it has been a great last couple of weeks because I have stayed up late just trying to comprehend how big God is and I am just amazed when I think about it and it gives me so much joy that someone that big is right by my side and will be for eternity. I just can't get that thought to register in my mind as reality, so it consistently keeps me up at night, so I read and read and read just trying to learn more about who God is. The last 5 or 6 months have been amazing because for the first time in my life I have had a desire to read and I love it now and it has been such a blessing because lately I have had a chance to get in the word like never before and I can only hope it doesn't slow down. Before that my whole life I was not a big fan of reading at all so im very thankful I have gotten past that.

I am listening to the song "Take This Life" by Shawn McDonald right now and its lyrics are really speaking to me. "wont you take this life wont you change this life, come and make me whole" something we all desire is to be fulfilled. I along with everyone else have a daily battle trying to be fulfilled. One of the hardest things for me to do on a daily basis is fulfill myself with the lord instead of the things of this world, because the things of this world are right in front of me and look so fulfilling, but they can't do the job like the God I can't see. It is so weird to think you can be fulfilled by something you cant see physically see, but thats what makes the mystery of it all so great and I am learning to try and focus on becoming whole through him and not anything else. Trust me I fail every day, but I'm trying God I am trying. Every day I think about you and want to be closer to you, because you are it, the creator, the king of kings. So I finish this post off by saying give me the desire again tomorrow and the next day and every day from now on to seek you, no matter how many times I fall on my face.

Inspire Me

Shawn McDonald - Take This Life (amazing lyrics)
As I'm standing here, staring into the mirror
See the figure of a man trying to take a stand
And live for something more
Integrity is what I need and honor to my soul I feed
To give it up, pack it in, getting rid of all my sin that's weighing me down
Won't You come and fill
I want You to come and make me more real
Take this life, won't You change this life
Come and make me whole
Won't You take this life, won't You change this life
Come and make me whole
In my pursuit of what is real
My heart is longing with a need to feel my soul come alive
I trudge and I step through the height and the death
Of a long narrow road** as I'm growing old
And soon I will be home